Girls, If You Can Read This...

Missing my girls terribly... :'(

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It's getting more and more frustrating every time I talk to you on the phone :( With the passion and excitement almost gone, I'm at loss as what to do with both of us. We're hanging on an extremely thin cord. Sometimes I have this vision of me cutting off the cord and watching us fall down, down, down into the deep black unknown hole. Would we catch each other, I wonder... Would you catch me when I fall?

Sempurna

Ke hadapan kamu yang tersempurna,

Mudah-mudahan Allah SWT akan mempertemukan kita lagi...
Dan mudah-mudahan pertemuan untuk kali yang akan datang adalah satu pertemuan yang berkekalan sehingga bila-bila, dengan izin-Nya Yang Maha Esa...
Amin ya rabbal alamin... :)

Daripada yang terus menunggu diri kamu...

These Words

People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered.
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies.
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you.
Be honest and sincere anyway.

What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight.
Create anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous.
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, will often be forgotten.
Do good anyway.

Give the best you have, and it will never be enough.
Give your best anyway.

In the final analysis, it is between you and God.
It was never between you and them anyway.

(Mother Teresa)

Jika Aku Jatuh Cinta...

Jika Aku Jatuh Cinta

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh cinta,
cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yang
melabuhkan cintanya pada-Mu,
agar bertambah kekuatan ku untuk mencintai-Mu.

Ya Muhaimin, jika aku jatuh cinta,
jagalah cintaku padanya agar tidak
melebihi cintaku pada-Mu.

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh hati,
izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang
yang hatinya tertaut pada-Mu,
agar tidak terjatuh aku dalam jurang cinta semu.

Ya Rabbana, jika aku jatuh hati,
jagalah hatiku padanya agar tidak
berpaling dari hati-Mu.

Ya Rabbul Izzati, jika aku rindu,
rindukanlah aku pada seseorang yang
merindui syahid di jalan-Mu.

Ya Allah, jika aku rindu,
jagalah rinduku padanya agar tidak lalai aku
merindukan syurga-Mu.

Ya Allah, jika aku menikmati cinta kekasih-Mu,
janganlah kenikmatan itu melebihi kenikmatan indahnya bermunajat
di sepertiga malam terakhirmu.

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh hati pada kekasih-Mu,
jangan biarkan aku tertatih dan terjatuh dalam perjalanan panjang
menyeru manusia kepada-Mu.

Ya Allah, jika Kau halalkan aku merindui kekasih-Mu,
jangan biarkan aku melampaui batas sehingga melupakan aku pada cinta hakiki dan rindu abadi hanya kepada-Mu.

Ya Allah, Engkau mengetahui bahawa hati-hati ini telah berhimpun dalam cinta pada-Mu, telah berjumpa pada taat pada-Mu, telah bersatu dalam dakwah pada-MU, telah berpadu dalam membela syariat-Mu. Kukuhkanlah, Ya Allah, ikatannya. Kekalkanlah cintanya. Tunjukilah jalan-jalannya. Penuhilah hati-hati ini dengan Nur-Mu yang tiada pernah pudar. Lapangkanlah dada-dada kami dengan limpahan keimanan kepada-Mu dan keindahan bertawakal di jalan-Mu.

(As-Syahid Syed Qutb)

Some Random Thoughts

My body feels bloated.
Extremely bloated.
Like a penguin.

Must be the hormones.
Taking control of my body and emotions.
Playing tricks on my mind and my eyes.

I am a roller coaster.
Whirling round and round and round.
Never know when is the ride going to stop.
Maybe I do not want it to stop at all.

I might land at the end of the rainbow.
Maybe there are pots of gold waiting for me there.

Or I might land somewhere within the fluffy clouds.

And discover zillions of silver linings.

Oh, let's just enjoy the ride.

Tell Me

So, tell me.

Do you think that we will always end up with The One that we love?

Isn't love all about letting go when you need to as long as the person that you love is happy and you are happy knowing that he or she is happy?

Do you think that no matter how great our differences are, love will always overcome those differences and work things out although we come from two entirely different planets with different sets of beliefs and faith? Can love overcome that and at the same time, avoid breaking other people's hearts?

Just wondering.

What Do Wedding Cakes Do To Me? ;)

Assalamualaikum and good afternoon, everybody... :)

Well, I do not have anything really specific to write about this afternoon, actually. Things have been quite arduous for the past few days with four days of non-stop papers to sit for. If exam questions could kill, I would be dead by now. But here I am, still standing tall as ever. What does not kill you makes you stronger, eh? ;) Ever heard of that saying? :)

Okay, I know this has got nothing to do with what I have just talked about but let me share with you one of the ways on how I reduce my stress after days of non-stop business. I surf for wedding cakes on the Internet! ;) Looking at all these lovely cakes makes my day :)

I love cakes. I love eating them. They are one of my staple diets! ;p Being a die-hard fan of Secret Recipe, I make it a mission to try out every different type of cake that they have every time I pay a visit ;) Their cakes are moist, delicious and they melt right in your mouth. Looking at the velvety and luscious texture of the cakes is mouth-watering enough. And when you put them into your mouth, the succulence of them all is so oh-my-heavenly... I never want my moments of enjoying eating cakes to finish. I want them to last and last and last and last and last forever... ;) Oh, if only such thing exists! ;D I would have owned a cake franchise and I would be the only customer I have ever had... Hahaha... ;p

I find out that when I look at those cakes, my mind begins to conjure up images of lovely and romantic weddings. Weddings that are filled with the images of a man and a woman who are very much in love, loving families and friends who come to celebrate, laughter, joy, happiness, romance, merriment... I picture weddings that are classic, meaningful, timeless and unforgettable... Weddings that are meant to unite two hearts that are beating together... Weddings that leave two persons totally breathless and at the same time, contented, just looking at the faces of their loved ones... Weddings that are shared for an eternity that are composed of never-ending, strong, pure and deep love, comprehension and appreciation for one another... Weddings that leave two persons feeling as if they are the most fortunate human beings ever created by God in the entire universe... Ooohhh... ;)

And voila!~~~ My elevated level of stress would immediately descends once romantic thoughts like these crossed my mind. Somehow, these kind of thoughts give me hopes and dreams that I can hold on too when things get tough. Realistic hopes and dreams that are possible to realize :) I know that underneath the mountains of uncountable stress, lies a humongous valley of great felicity, if I search hard enough... :) I know and I will never ever forget that, I hope, no matter how miserable life can be, sometimes. I hope all of you out there are not going to forget that either ;)

Simply lovely and irresistible...~~~ ;)

Enchanted as ever,
Eyna... :)

Awww!!! ;)

Oh, my!!! I really, really, really cannot help it!!! This latest blogger design is just so darn cute!!! :)) Thanks a bunch, Sharnee!!! :) I love it!!! ;D

Missing You...

It has been a long time since I last had a dream about you. We were so happy in the dream. Both of us talking and laughing like we used to do before. I was calling you up or was it you who were calling me up? I do not remember. Some dreams tend to be hazy, at times, while others are just as clear as the cloudless skies. We talked freely like the way we used to talk before, not caring that we were showing each other our secretest and most foolish sides and not having a care about what the rest of the world was doing. It was just you and me, getting ourselves lost and enchanted in our own little, peaceful world. Your voice, your smile, your laughter, your twinkling eyes, the little winks that we gave each other when we thought nobody would notice, those times that we spent fighting and then making up all over again, the times when we just simply enjoyed the company of each other and no words were needed, our late-night chats, those times when we were there for each other, no matter what it takes...

Although you might not come back... although you might not be here anymore, I just hope that you know I am missing you more and more as the second ticks by...

:'(

Sekarang saya benar-benar rasa ingin menangis, okey...? Tapi saya mesti bertahan. Kalau tidak, nanti mata saya kembang dan proses untuk meletakkan maskara di bulu mata saya akan menjadi an experience from hell. Oh, mungkin juga ini disebabkan oleh hormon saya yang selalu berubah secara tiba-tiba apabila that time of the month mahu datang. Mungkin juga kerana saya berasa amat stressed dengan semester ini yang begitu hectic serta ditambah pula dengan ujian-ujian yang entah apa-apa itu. Saya tidak pasti. Saya tahu bunyi saya amat negatif di sini. Saya minta maaf sekiranya ini mengganggu perasaan kamu. Saya janji saya akan senyum nanti. Please bear with me at the moment. Okey, bye-bye.

Utterly Depressed...

A tornado of incredible and overwhelming stupidity, confusion, loss, anger, resentment, loneliness, shame, humiliation, inferiority, worthlessness, despair, powerlessness, suffocation, skepticism, abomination, helplessness, frustration, fear and paralysis smash me hard on the face as I stared at the paper, writhing in total agony. Not literally but well, that is how it feels like inside... It is a wonder how could I feel so dead with all the emotional turmoil whirling inside of me, eating at my very heart... The exam paper was gruellingly difficult. I just do not know why... I do not know what to expect out of it and now I feel as if my entire energy and strength have been sapped away by an unseen force... I feel the Earth tumbling down at my feet... Oh, somebody please, take me far, far away from here... :'(

Depressed at the moment,
Eyna.

Lalalalalalala...

Just a quick post before I hit the notes for Educational Technology. Educational Technology paper is scheduled tomorrow at 3.30 pm.

We have just finished sitting for Comparative Literature paper. The questions were reasonable. They were constructed based on what we have learned during the lectures unlike (please fill in the blank, haha... ;p). Nevertheless, I forgot the definition of national literature T_T. Oh, never mind... What is done is done. There is really no point in thinking and crying over it now. There is another battle to conquer tomorrow!

Oh yeah, by the way, I am not keen on answering exam questions which require subjective answers. I often tend to get carried away when I write. When I write, I need to feel the vibe. I write until my heart says "stop". I must be fully satisfied with what I have written. It has to feel "right". Or else, I would feel as if I am producing a piece of junk, which is pretty much how I feel when I read again my answers in the forms of essays during exams... They suck a lot... =p

I also feel as if I need all the time in the world when I write. That is simply impossible because there is a time-limit for every exam.

I hate it too when my right hand become stiff and sore from writing too much. My right thumb is hurting and swollen. It can easily pass the interview for Kacang Ngan Yin advertisement... ;p

Okay, that is all for now. I have got to go hit the notes now.

Friends, keep fighting!!! Aja!!!~~~ ;D All the best!!! ;) Tata!!!~~~

P/S: Isn't it funny how some people scorn or look down on other people's beliefs merely because those beliefs are not what they believe in? I say, GO GET A LIFE, YOU PATHETIC PEOPLE!!!

Oh, Honey, Honey, Honey, Honey...

I am awfully tired and I feel like taking a nap tapi sik bagus, nak, mun nak tido di waktu-waktu senja macam tok, di kala Maghrib... Orang tengah azan tapi lekak ya dirik terperuk tidur di atas katil... Sik boleh jadi... Adoh... Sudah terbabas dari topik sebenar perbualan... ;p

Just like what I have mentioned earlier, hehe... I am awfully tired and I feel like taking a nap but the words keep pressing at my brain. It is a wonder to me why I have so much to write here during this time when I should be reading my notes instead. For goodness sake, I still have another six papers to sit for for this semester's final exam!!! I do not know what the heck am I doing here blabbering away... Perhaps, it is the tension - the need to let out whatever is it that I am feeling now. I am actually quite worried and nervous about sitting for this semester's final exam. I feel as if I have learnt nothing for the past three months or so. I still cannot see the point in taking up the courses for this semester... Well, except for a few... I am very much clueless all the time. I do not even know what I am doing, at times. Let's just pray and hope that everything turns out well, amin ya rabbal alamin...

Alhamdulillah... Many thanks to The Merciful Allah SWT... We have just finished sitting for our Action Research paper. I do not want to comment a lot on it. If I do, I am afraid that I will be the next dweller of Tanjung Rambutan... ;p Even though I was pretty lost during the exam and I just jotted down whatever answer that crossed my mind, I am exceptionally grateful that it is over! Alhamdulillah... :) Hopefully it would be alright. Amin... Amin... Amin...

*Nyaman ada bau kamek goreng midin belacan tadik, koh...*

I am currently addicted to ssssuuuuuppppppeeeeerrrrr-dddduuuuppppppeeeeerrrrrr cccccuuuuttttteeeeeee Korean songs!!! ;D

Thanks to Nana and Hai!!! ;p

Hahahaha... ;p Saja nak promote muka duak orang kawan kamek yang kacak tok... ;D

I cannot stop listening to this song from Kara entitled "Honey"! ;) This song is so addictive. I even want to howl it loudly while having my bath. Tapi ngenang tok hostel, bah... Bukan bilit mandik di rumah... Mun sik, dah lamak jadi Sheri dengan Sap... Hahaha... ;p

Kara - Honey

To B. Ed. (TESL) Cohort 3, keep fighting!!! We can!!! All the best, boys and girls!!! ;D

Cik Dalila, Cik Sheela and Cik Safa missing in action dari gambar tok, their places being replaced by Dr. Ramlee and Mr. Tingang... ;p

Kacak Na Juak Kitak???

While taking a brief break from reading my Action Research notes, I found these superb Christian Louboutin's Satin Peep Toe Shoes!!! Oh, my God!!! How much more BEAUTIFUL, CLASSY AND ELEGANT can a shoes get??? Oh, gosh!!! Oh baby, you are a real BEAUTY!!! ;D Why do you have to be so astoundingly beautiful??? Oh, why, why, why, why, why... just why????? You are simply perfect!!! PERFECTO!!! ;D Wwwwwaaaaahhhhhhhhh...!!!!!

Kacak na juak kitak????? Ya Rabbi...

*Currently in a total speechless but going ga-ga all over the place mood!!!*

Geram, eh... Ggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrr... Hahaha... ;p

Okeylah. Dahlah ya, Eyna. Gila bayang kelak... Belajar gik nun...

Final isok, oi... Bukan tahun depan... =p